Friday, June 12, 2009

Take it off

You get to learn about all kinds of things in my line of work.


After monitoring a fire academy budget for awhile, and following Brian's blog... I got to thinking about scubas.



Specifically SCBA. Self Contained Breathing Apparatus.



These things:


I started thinking about how control freaks (like me) want to, have to, need to do it on our own.

Be self-sufficient.
Handle it ourselves.
Else it won't get done right.
Things would be chaos.

How many times do we put on our self-contained breathing apparatus and head out to conquer?

Knowing that we've got our own air source, everything is under control.

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Until...

Someone puts a kink in your oxygen line.
Their words and actions lead to consequences that you cannot control.

Battling through every disagreement depletes your reserves.

And soon you find that your oxygen has been replaced with carbon dioxide... the stuff you are supposed to let go of.

Sure. You don't need anybody. You've got your own supply. You can do it yourself.

Only the gear of self-reliance is awful heavy.
While you think it sustains you, in fact it causes you to stumble with weariness.

In Matthew 11:
28 "Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."

It's so easy for me to skip through that verse. It's familiar and comforting, but lacks the punch of any real thinking on my part.
Until I'm tired and worn out. And I see the results of my "control". It's unhappy chaos anyway and all my exertion has only managed to keep me tethered.

Not to mention the mask gets pretty darn foggy - it's easy to lose direction.

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What if I pulled it off?

Quit relying on myself as my source?
Instead of being dependent on a finite tank that can get dented, depend on the One who has an endless reserve?
Rely on the very One who gives me breath?

Pull it off and breathe deeply of the sweet air.
To exhale what I was supposed to let go of.
To shrug the heavy straps off my shoulders and let go of my "self-reliance".
To surrender what will never be controlled by me.

And to feel the wind again.

14 comments:

Shanda said...

Such a great post Rachel! I especially loved these two lines:

"To shrug the heavy straps off my shoulders and let go of my "self-reliance".
To surrender what will never be controlled by me."

Your steppin on my toes girl; the "illusion of control" is something that I have to consciously release.

Blessings!

Melissa said...

Wow! Did that ever hit me like it was just written for me! I have to hang on to this post...so I can come back to it and probably frequently! Thanks Rachel for opening up my eyes!

kay said...

Amazing post Rachel, thank you!

chicamom85 said...

First I must tell you that every time I come to your blog and see that little face looking at me I smile. Thank you for that. Thank you also for this beautiful post, you are describing me in many ways, it is something to think about

Anne

Alicia W. said...

Great post as always Rachel! Have a wonderful weekend.

wife.mom.nurse said...

Beautifully said my friend. The scripture says so much. I am so thankful that our Savior's yoke is not a burden. So freeing!

K said...

beautiful thought
so true

He And Me + 3 said...

Great insight. you are so right. So glad I can come to Him just as I am to find rest.

Elaine at Matters of the Heart) said...

So beautiful and so true.

Have a blessed weekend.

Foursons said...

I presented y'all with an award on my blog!

brian said...

Although I’m not sure that the Bible references self-contained breathing apparatus per se, I do like this passage…Like it so much that I tattooed it onto my left arm:

When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.

For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;

(Isaiah 43:2-3)

Stacy said...

Beautiful post, Rachel. I totally hear you on that, too. We can't control everything and occassionally we need someone else to lean on. :)

Megan said...

Wonderful post! Something I really needed to hear and ponder. Thank you!!

Pam D said...

I honestly thought I'd see "Mr. Daddy" as the siggy on this post; not sure why. I guess that's what happens when you've been married for a while; you begin to think alike. Sound alike. (Look alike? nah.. I won't go that far). But seriously, I think it's a compliment to BOTH of you that there are times when I'm not sure which one of you wrote a post. Because it truly means.... that you're joined at the heart. And isn't that what God really intended for marriage to be?