Thursday, August 20, 2009

As Promised... The Aftermath - Part Three

Knock Knock

Who’s there?

Orange

Orange who?

Orange you gonna enter the giveaway yet? :)

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So… in an effort to drive you all madly insane and bored to tears with the zillion posts the accident has triggered, I am hoping this is the epilogue.  You know, where the fat lady signs?

(Oh come on… you didn’t get that?  It’s deaf humor… she SIGNS? ;)

Here are Parts One and Two.

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So… Miss R. looks back at me and says

I’m sorry.

I’m left feeling a bit conflicted.

Is that the closure I was looking for?  Her tears and regret?

I feel strangely connected to her – that split second destruction could have been a “being in the RIGHT place at the RIGHT time” that puts her on the path to changing her life.

But I struggle with the same thing that I do in parenting:  I can talk and teach and show til I’m blue in the face… and yet everyone has free will.

We start to head out of the courtroom, passing by the row of her supporters gingerly… I am more afraid of them than I am of her.

~

We all breath a sigh of relief as we head to the elevators.  I think we are all a bit drained and happy to be leaving.

We board the elevator and my dad hits the floor button.

The doors begin to close, but just like in a bad movie… and arm suddenly thrusts between and pries them open.

I gasp quietly and my mind starts racing.  This very complex is where a correctional officer nearly lost her life fighting an inmate in an elevator.

The wrinkled hand belongs to the old man who had sat in the back of the courtroom.

He shuffles onto the elevator, looks at my dad, and says:

That the girl she hurt?

My dad replies in the affirmative and the old man begins to speak:

That’s my granddaughter.

I didn’t even know what this was about today.

She needs to straighten up her life.

You know kids… they never listen.

And he finally steals a glance at me and I can see the remorse and unspoken apology in his eyes.

I nod wordlessly and we continue down.

As he exits, I look at Mr. Daddy in disbelief and say, “that’s the old man who was taking pictures at the scene, isn’t it?!  He’s the one who was acting uncooperative, right?”

Sure ‘nuf.

We are headed out the building, almost through the metal detectors when I feel pounding footsteps behind me.  I turn and a woman grabs my arm.

I recognize her.  She is the one with the beautiful little boy from the front row.

I am suddenly even more grateful that my dad and Mr. Daddy are right there.

She says

Thank you

She needed to hear that

I hope this helps her change

I had a substance problem too

and I’ve been clean for nine years

I’m her best friend

I’m gonna help her

Thank you

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What do you say?

I think the entire group expected something different that day.

But I didn’t have the energy to be angry.  I didn’t have the heart to be judgmental.

I simply saw such a broken person that looked like me.

And over and over again… the refrain in my mind.

That God was every bit as crazy about her as He is about me.

Talk about humbling.

24 comments:

JenniferNe said...

Wow! I did not see that ending coming at all! God is amazing!

Foursons said...

Still gives me chills even though I know the story already. You did good girl. Real good.

K said...

Rachel - this whole story and your and Mr Daddy's conduct through it is sooo profoundly moving

Emily said...

woah. That hit me on so many different levels that it's going to take me a while to process it all. Amazing, just amazing.

Shanda said...

I can't believe there was even more after the "I'm sorry" moment; but
God may have used this situation to change several people's lives through all of this.

Again, I'm so proud of you for being so humble, loving and brave all rolled into one.

This says it all...

"That God was every bit as crazy about her as He is about me."

Pam D said...

Beautiful, dear friend. It's just how I see Jesus when He was here in the flesh. He LOVED these people that most of us despise and turn away from. He touched them, He talked to them, He healed them. BUT... then He said... "Now.. go.. and sin no more." He still expected change, even with the love, and His love was and is life-changing. That's what flowed from you in that courtroom. Beautiful.

Tiffany said...

Wow! You listened, you were open, and you allowed God to speak through you, rather than you speaking for God. And you were a witness and an encouragement to a family in desperate need of both. That is simply amazing.

Sara said...

Great posts, Rachel. I am speechless. Every word you wrote was so true. I loved the last two sentences of this post.

Well done....

Lisa said...

Wow. You obviously did your job of letting God show through you, because it seems like Heavenly results have happened. Whether the lady who hit you ever heeds to her warnings and blessed chance at a different life, you touched many people that day. Thank God for giving you the words and the strength for that.

MrsMann said...

You're an amazing woman for what you did in there. Never forget it.

Lynn W said...

Rachel, Way to 'man up'. God is very proud of you. You too Mr. Daddy. And BTW, loved the birthday post.
I hope this helps you close this horrible chapter of your life. Itty Bitty is going to need a driver pretty soon and you CAN do it.
Hugs to you and your family,
Lynn W from Sara's site.
Knock Knock
Who's there?
Orange
Orange who
Orange you glad I didn't say apple.
This one may have been posted since I last lurked/followed. God Bless you.

He & Me + 3 said...

You are one amazing person Rachel. Your heart is beating with His. you are so unique!

-stephanie- said...

Wow. You're a beautiful person.

wife.mom.nurse said...

oh my goodnes.

What a story. Those interactions were profound indeed.

I am praying for you and that girl tonight.

I have missed you so much!

~Julie

Alicia W. said...

I totally just read this post twice! LOVE IT! You capture me with you writing.. Have a wonderful weekend.

Mr. and Mrs. Nurse Boy said...

Thank you so much for sharing that! You are amazing! I am crying YET AGAIN! What a beautiful ending... for you... and her, we pray.

Mrs. Nurse Boy

City girl turned Country Girl said...

Oh my gosh I can't even begin to explain what this story does to my heart...First and foremost I thank God that your little miracle boy was not in that truck with you! And you handled that with such grace, and you have shown me that even in such scary times that grace is always there...Thank you...

Life with Kaishon said...

You handled that so perfectly. Wow. God must have given you an extra special dose of strength to handle that with such grace.

Elaine at Matters of the Heart) said...

Oh Lord I have been crying all night long. God certainly knows what he is doing, doesn't he. Today's message was about forgiveness, whew.

My father was taken from me by a reckless driver, forgiveness takes on a whole new dimension when you are involved with things like this.

I pray that she gets the help she needs, it is possible.

Stacy said...

This is the kind of story that makes you say, "God works in mysterious ways". I hope and pray that your words will help her change her mind. It sounds like she has a support system to help her.

Kameron said...

Ok, so this whole thing screams Lifetime movie! It has been a tear jerker the whole way through. I am so glad everything turned ot the way it did. You never know what you will get from people. Hopefully you can put it behind you and she can get the help she needs!

Megan said...

What a story!! Wow. So glad her friends and family were there, too, to hear your statement. Hopefully you will be the inspiration they need to help this girl.

Mama4Real said...

I have tried to hold back the tears in reading through these posts but good grief. What a testimony of the Father taking over and giving you exactly what you needed to get through that, and amazingly enough, it being exactly what that girl needed to hear. Wow. I can't even begin to touch all the thoughts going through my head right now. Wow oh wow.

Emmy said...

So glad I am came and read these links. How truly amazing, how truly amazing that you were able to find it in your heart to forgive and to grant her this gift. I truly hope she does take it to heart and changes her life around.