Thursday, September 30, 2010

Because I'm still overwhelmed


The accident was the right in the middle of a very turbulent time.

Blogging is my therapy.  It’s hard not to share details with you my friends.

We’ve been living in a pressure cooker for well over a year now.  While I try hard not to let my deafness create any type of “victim” label, I am exhausted by the emotional toll of someone using my disability to bully me.


There, I said it.

And legally it can’t be considered slander or unfair criticism because it’s true.

I thought bullying was a school-age problem.  Not something I’d face as an adult from someone in authority.  And not in a way that targets the fact that I cannot hear.

I’m the first person to champion the rights of someone who has a disability.  The first to try to work it out with communication.  And the last to give up.

Except that I’m spent.  I’ve never been on the receiving end of this kind of long-term attack.



Sorry, I’m having trouble finding the funny today.

So I thought I’d link you up with some things that make me smile:


Happy Coming Home Day Kona!

(Yes, that’s what you call it when you don’t know your horse’s birthday :)

This girl has a will to live that is beyond amazing.

Remember this?


It’s been three years – and much fattening up from that first day we got her.


We love you sweet girl!



And while reading Beth’s blog – this guest post on marriage lessons was totally snort-worthy.

(“When he said, “All I ever really needed to know I learned from Star Trek,” he was serious.”)

So I followed the link over, and found a little gem at The 4th Frog Blog.  Hope it makes you smile too:


I couldn’t help but grin right around the 2:50 mark…


Lexie Loo & Dylan Too said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you're having a rough time. I hope things get resolved soon!

What a special day for you and your horse! I call our coming home day our anniversary! :) She's beautiful!

renee said...

i'm sorry things are sucky right now! hope they get better soon! love you!

Tiffany said...

Ugh. I am so not happy with people right now. I wish I could take all this pain & frustration for you. KNOW I am praying, and will continue until it is resolved. It isn't ok, at all. My arms ache to give you a giant hug.

This is my prayer for you today:
1 Peter 1:6-7
"6 I know how great this makes you feel, even though you have to put up with every kind of aggravation in the meantime. 7 Pure gold put in the fire comes out of it proved pure; genuine faith put through this suffering comes out proved genuine. When Jesus wraps this all up, it's your faith, not your gold, that God will have on display as evidence of his victory."

There will be victory, friend. And you will be proved to be pure gold. Hang tough, and thanks for letting us hang with you. Love you lady!

Kelly said...

Rachel, I'm sorry people are acting like idiots towards you. I wish I were there to help you deal with the problem.

God will see you through...praying for a brighter day tomorrow.

Anonymous said...

What is their problem! Hope things get to going better for you, ASAP!

Brandi said...

Rach, you are a beautiful person inside and out... I'm so sorry someone is too ignorant to see that.

You and your sweet family are always in my 'everyday prayers,' but I will say a specific prayer that this individual stops tormenting you.

Maybe some prayers are in order for this bully as well. Idiot. <-- Ya like how I call someone an idiot and decide to pray for them at the same time? :P

Kmama said...

I'm so sorry this is still going on, and that you are just totally spent by all of this. I wish I could take away some of the burden for you!

Hang in there.

And that video totally cracked me up!

K- floortime lite mama said...

hugs and hugs Sweet Rachel

Kameron said...

Can't see the video (darn work!) but I will check it at home. I don't know the gist, but I hope whatever is going on with you gets resolved. Living with that much tension is not good for you physically or mentally. Big hugs!

Amy said...

Bums me out to see you down in the dumps :-( I am praying for you. Soon I'm sure this will all be behind you.

Look at how good that horse looks! Happy coming home day to both of you!!!

Anonymous said...

Oh man Rachel, that is so awful that in this day and age bullying still goes on, and in the adult world! I hope this person pulls their head out of their butt and sees how wonderful you are, hearing or not!

Happy coming home Kona! That first picture still grabs my guts.

That video was awesome!

Christy@WickedHappy said...

sending happy thoughts your way, and saying a prayer for you today.

Together We Save said...

Praying for you... I am sorry someone is making your life tough!

When I fisrt saw that picture of that horse I thought.... he is ay to thin glad to know you have taken care of that.

Saimi said...

Holy Cow Rachel I just got done reading about your Kona after her two year anniversary! What an amazing girl you have there and what an amazing girl you are!!

She's beautiful just like you. It warms my heart knowing how lucky she is to have found you! You saved her.

Just remember when people act like idiots there are others who love you and they are what matter!

Buckeroomama said...

I'm sorry things are yucky at the moment... hang in there. There is such a thing as karma.

That video? Had me laughing out loud!! It brought back memories of me with the kids (esp. Z) when they were younger and me trying to sneak out from their beds.

Foursons said...

What in the world was he thinking getting into the crib? Why didn't he just take her to a chair or his bed? Hahaha- I know, there is no answer to that million dollar question.

I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now. I hate that you're having to go through all of that mess. At the same time I am so glad it is Mr. D at your side supporting you through it.

Muthering Heights said...

I'm sorry this is happening to you...
I'll pray for some relief!

Shana said...

Rachel, You are in my prayers and I want to share a word of encouragement with you too.
John 14:18
I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.
All things will work out. Keep your head up and know Satan attacks those closest to God.

Kona looked so much like Samurai when we got him. He was the same way, skin and bones.

I LOVED that video.

City girl turned Country Girl said...

Okay...I'm mad now...This person should be ashamed! Unfortunately there are ignorant, rude, and jealous people out there who make it their mission to hurt people and you definitely do NOT deserve it!! I am praying for a resolution for this problem for you!

Happy homecoming day to Kona!! She definitely is blessed to have you!

Anonymous said...

I am sorry that you are going thru a rough time. Praying that is a rainbow at the end for you.

You are a great writer and I love reading your blog. Unfortunately, bullying never goes away. I wish it did.

Anonymous said...

I am sorry that you are going thru a rough time. Praying that is a rainbow at the end for you.

You are a great writer and I love reading your blog. Unfortunately, bullying never goes away. I wish it did.

Heather said...

Whoever is ignorant enough to bully someone with a disability is just an idiot. But to bully YOU??? You, a woman with such a kind heart and hilarious spirit? I don't get it. I'm sorry you're going through this and I truly hope it ends soon, with some sort of consequence for the person (getting fired, yes??)

But in other news, that video was hilarious! That's exactly how I felt the first night I slept with Aidan in his bed (minus the musical soundtrack!) : ) Love ya, Rachel!! Hang in there.

Stacy said...

Rachel, I'm so sorry to hear that you are still going through this stuff.

We're still hoping for that perfect world, where people do the right thing and treat others with the respect they deserve...aren't we?? Hopefully, at some point they will realize they are in the wrong, or others will realize it and help you out LIKE THEY SHOULD.