Wednesday, June 20, 2012

You know…

 

…when you can’t have something; that’s when you, like, NEED it, right?

 

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I miss this guy.

 

(I miss being that skinny, too; but that’s beside the point).

 

After two weeks on the “paper and grass” diet, they whisked him away for the radioactive treatment.  Before I could even hug him one last time.

 

I blinked in surprise as they shut the door.

radioactive

 

 

I couldn’t cry.  He’d know for sure.

 

(Anyone want to teach me how to pretty cry?  Like without the snot and everything?)

 

 

Leaving the hospital, he tried to stay as far away from the patients passing him in the hall.  It was almost comical watching him dodge them all ninja-like.

 

I sat scrunched against the passenger seat door on the way home.  The backseat wasn’t any further away, and at least I could read his lips without causing a traffic accident.

 

I didn’t know what to do with my hands.  I didn’t realize we held hands so much.

 

I like it.

 

 

Four days.

 

And yet a sweet friend reminded me that we are BLESSED.  To have this treatment even available to us.  To have yucky tasteless food to live on while waiting for the medicine to work.  To have a home with an extra bed so he did not have to be fully quarantined.

 

Talk about a reset button.  Perspective changes things.

 

I’m grateful.

 

Grateful for a God who cares deeply about the things that we care about.  Grateful that His shoulders are big enough for my worries.

 

~

 

Today was my mom’s birthday.  She gave up her special day to pick up an excited 6-year old from his last day of kindergarten.  He’s spending the night at Grandma & Papa’s house and not realizing one bit how melancholy it is here without him tonight.

Thanks Mom.  Thanks Dad.

 

 

~

 

 

Help me count these four days down.  Harass the dude to finally write a blog post, would ya?  No excuse mister… you are home tomorrow ;)

 

And just for fun… I totally want to make t-shirts out of this!

 

team mr daddy

 

(Feel free to steal it, we appreciate all the prayers we can get! :)

 

 

And because every post is better with a bit of funny…

 

glow in the dark

 

 

We have the BEST friends.  And that means you.

16 comments:

Angel Shrout said...
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MrsMann said...

It will be over before you know it. Hang in there!

Krulls in Haiti said...

You are blessed to know a love like this on earth. I'm praying the next four days fly by with success that surpasses your hopes.

Kmama said...

It's nice to have perspective, but it's also okay to feel bad and say that life sucks right now. It really does. And no one will (or at least no one SHOULD) fault you for feeling bad once in awhile.

Continued prayers.

Candance said...

OMG, I'm sad for you because you want to hold hands and you can't. I'm mad at NJ for not holding my enough and I'm thankful that he (Mr. Daddy, not NJ) gets this treatment and I know he's totally going to rock this!! Now, off to send mean texts to NJ on his birthday about how he doesn't hold my hand enough which means he thinks I'm fat.

Jenn said...

Praying for you!

I can't begin to imagine the hardness and total emotional strain this is creating for each of you. I loved that you were able to find something to be thankful for.

Remember even in the darkest days God is holding you.

"So do not fear for I am with you. Do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you in my righteous right hand." Isa 41:10

Kameron said...

4 Days of not touching will be rough, but so greatful that the treatmetn he needs is complete! I hope you all get back to normal as soon as possible!

robin said...

Oh Rachel...I hope you get the hug of a lifetime as soon as those 4 days are over! Hubby hugs are the best (right up there next to hugs from your kiddos!) Until then, here's a cyber *hug* to hold ya until then!

Foursons said...

I pray for all of of you daily. I am so looking forward to when y'all climb out of this valley and are shouting from the rooftops.

GunDiva said...

If I give him something to blog about, will he? :)

Sorry you've got a no-contact order when what you need the most is a hug and to be held.

If he took his pill yesterday, does that mean we're down to just three days of no-contact? That you can have a hug-fest come Sunday?

Mom of M&Ms said...

Can i run up there and take some infared photos.. I think it will be glowing cool????

Ya know we are praying in Texas.... and God hears it all!!!

Anonymous said...

Job 23:10
But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold.

Anonymous said...

Have you ever felt utterly overwhelmed? How did you cope?

Anabel Gillham writes at Lifetime Guarantee about how Jesus dealt with the stress of His earthly life. In his final hours, Jesus found a quiet place by himself on Mount Olivet where he could pour out his heart to God:

We can learn something else from our beloved Savior: He went away by Himself and spent the night on the mount called Olivet, isolated from the suffocating, human barricade that imprisoned Him, clutching at His robe, calling—screaming—sobbing— “Help me! Please help me.” Was He burdened with the multitudes who came only to see a lame man walk or a blind man see—fleeting, fragile miracles of physical healing that would last only for a brief span of time when eternity was on His mind? Yes. He longed to be by Himself in a quiet place with no interruptions sharing His thoughts with His Father and drawing strength for what was to come.

Susan said...

You have prayers from Missouri! The most certain thing in life is that time continues to march forward, when you want it to, and when you don't. Things like this DO put life in the proper perspective. What's important always rises to the top and crowds out the inconsequential, important things like hugs and hand holding and anything else that says I love you. Wishing Mr. Daddy a very speedy and complete recovery! He'll certainly have all the loving support he needs.

Lexie Loo, Lily Boo, and Dylan Too! said...

Continuing to send prayers his way. I wish I could give you a hug!

Julie said...

((HUGS)) Thinking of you and praying. <3 <3